I can't help but blog about this matter. I know my main objective is a weekly update of my life, and a little crap post here and there. But i can't help but blog about this, and i can't do this post on the other blog cause it's very open where else, it's different here cause only a few has access to this. Anyways, the main point of today's post isn't to BITCH or SLAP anyone behind their back. Its just me TRYING to figure out things and a way to let myself see things out of the box.

Wells, basically its about one of my closest pal. (Thou shall not be name). A little bit about why this person affects me is because i consider this person to be one of my "LOVE ONES LIST". Like besides my family, i treasure friendship and has everyone know, friends come and go, but there are some in my life that i consider them JEMS and never want to let go off. So no matter what happen like if we fight, slap each other, or perhaps try to murder, i would still love them the way it is. UNLESS ONE DAY, they really break my heart, then that's another story lah.

So, this "person" is really one i love. And apparently she just broke up not long, perhaps a month or so. And now she's with another guy. Don't get me wrong, I'm not upset that she found a new beau what-so-ever. The main thing is

1) She didn't bother to tell any of us which makes me wonder if we're really important to her. Not that her life must be submitted to us, but the least she could do was to share a little. I mean we've been like friends for the past years and grew a lot. And she knows that if something happens to any of us we would share, OR AT LEAST I WOULD! Cause they're my besties and who am i going to share this news with besides them FIRST!

2) After her break-up, she was facing some problems with her ex. He is the clingy sort which she doesn't know how to deal with initially. After advices from number of people, i think she manage to master the courage and tell him off. Which perhaps it did work. And during these period, she announce that she wasn't going to go into any relationship at the moment as she wants to FOCUS ON STUDY AND LIFE. So much for study and life to end up in another relationship that fast. Like i said, not being mad or anything, just upset cause doesn't seem like she practice what she preaches.

3) (This is more of an internal problem) - The close peeps around us, doesn't seem to have a very good impression of "him"! Well, to me, what matters is he treats her well and make her happy, whether or not we like him is secondary but i never want to see or hear her getting hurt by him. SOOOOOO, like i said this reason is Secondary, but then again, i still feel she should have waited and see what comes her way. Personally i feel this friend of mine, never knows what she truly wants and always end up making haste decision. Her first relationship was like that and now HISTORY repeating itself AGAIN! I can't seem to understand girls like that, i mean is getting into a relationship that important. Like do ever people stop and think why am i wasting my time on a FUTURE EX BOYFRIEND? Why not just concentrate on life and see what else comes along first?

Well, eventually there can be thousands of reasons everyone can come up with, but the fact i'm annoyed and upset is.. WHERE DO WE STAND IN YOUR LIFE? If you say we're important then going to a relationship and not telling us about it is not necessary. Or can i say that maybe you can't be much bothered about? I don't know what her reasons are, and i'm dying to ask, at the same time, i feel that if she can't be bothered why SHOULD I?

And this friend has ask me out next week, but i haven't given her an answer. I want to reply and start questioning but at the same time i don't want to come off as KPO cause like i said, if she can't be bothered, why should i right? But right now, i'm realy confuse.


I know maybe some of you might try giving me advice but don't have an account and you have to or else you can't comment, but you can drop me an E-MAIL @ "Shalinda@ymail.com" or text me. I have to reply back to this friend but i'm LOST.




P/S : SO proud of myself, i went jogging just now. Though my legs hurt like #$%^&, but was really good. I should do this often. Next would be gym :) Going to aim for 50kg! 5kg to shred!