Dear Blogger/Friends reading this and MY ONLINE ALIVE ONLINE DIARY!

(JUST LET ME MORE PRIMARY SCHOOL)...
*DEAR DIARY*,


I have this couple of things to blog about and i think i can only get to sleep after getting it off my heart and chest and my GOD-DAMN BRAIN! Everything is like stuck there and i don't know how i should get it off besides blogging it out. To the point, recently i have feel this gap between me and J. I don't know why is it like that. Is it because we've became too close? But that can't be can it? I mean during back in school days, we were also close, also classmates, also best pals, why has that change now?

Sometimes, i get so annoyed and just feel like shutting myself away from her. WHY? I know things change when she started working, but i guess we both still try to find time to catch up be it with the girls together or just the both of us. But now that we see each other day in and out. I get this feeling. Are we running out of things to talk and communicate about? I don't think so, i mean even we don't have things to talk about, there will still be the normal things to share, but now sometimes i get so tired just talking. It's like the sian mood with her and i hate it. At times, she really did nothing and she have to bare my temperamental mood swings at her. Am i still upset over the other incident? I thought that was over or maybe i haven't moved on but even so, why the gap? Why the moody us? Why the Difference we have now?

Could it be we're taking each other for granted? Perhaps seeing each other in school everyday we tend not to find time for ourselves to hang out? Could it be that i'm more into the others than her? Could it be her everyday go home thing? Could it be cause of.... (which i think that is like close chapters.) or WHAT COULD IT BE!

Going to school everyday is like another mood swing. Sometime i feel like there's so much to share with her. Sometimes, it's like i have to think twice telling her when last time it just isn't like that.
I hope dear diary can like talk or reply back, but i guess i'll just have to heed dear human advice and take things slow, maybe we both ain't feeling the best at the moment, which i would like to live in this phrase.

I guess now i can go to bed and have a good rest. Hopefully, i'll be alright with her tomorrow! :)